..it is called determination...

i've lost one toe nail for what i called determination. and i didn't regret it one moment instead love for the fact that i've such determination even losing toe nail wasn't a problem and i would say...it wasn't that hurt.

well, it was a satisfying run more than what it hurt...the excitement surpassed the joints pain, the body ache even the dwelling thirst. all i could say is...it was great!

..piece of me...

it was really busy week, my FA doesnt wanna tally...well, it was taken from a manual calculation from previous acquired company. and it was so hard...not really but come to term of being insaturated!

i'm so, so kan cheung of running this weekend, my very first sckl. it would be a twenty one point seven km! wow! the lonngest i ran these days was like 7k? thus, this sckl would be very challenging. and the weekend after would be my outstation run. in ipoh, but i opted for a 10k. i cant be sure i still can run a half...

and after that my jelajah melaysia would start...for a week. in the east coast. hmm...have to take advance for that.

hmm...actually i just remember my friend...one of my friend, i ipoh. was a good friend of mine but we drawn apart, because we cant 'communicate'. i missed those days...

in life we must change...

must change indeed. for the better...not for worst! the longer we live the closer the time we are to the 'end'. thus, changes is a must to make life better and this world a better place.

i read bout my friend, well web pal, catra corbett...she just bounce and move forward. she's so brave. catra, if you read this...i really admire your spirit and wish i could be as good as yours! it's really inpiring.

lately, my life was so, so unfocus...i can't focus on work not my personal life nor my family's...just simply don't even care to live anymore. in short i've lost spark in my life and i really don't know why. i hardly back to the root...ask God, soul search or whatever. no i didn't. just simply stare out of window, asking...why was i being such a boring person and care less?

i don't have passion to live...and why was that?

..i am thankful...

last nite i went to train at local indie gym...indie here is independent...not a franchise like one i tag with true fitness or fitness first.

so, the thing was that...the folks, they are ok, train and having said that, they are body builders too...and no, i wasnt drooling ok. it was just another sight...and my innocent eyes are still protected. yeah, rite!

oh, yeah...why am i thankful? i went there to train for sckl...thus i only did my usual supposedly 5k but my intention was to do 10k...a long run. nevermind the intervals. oh...i was carried away again, it was the treadmill...charge me electric static! it raised my hair, seriously. and when i touched the metal...i've got electric shock, of course a minor one. but it did me uneasiness...

during my run, may be they were like...this girl must be having no idea that they have classes over too. so, one of the staff came approaching me and told me that i could join the class. i was just smiling as i just really wanted to run, to train. it was a rm7/entry charge.

well, i cant compare this local gym to one international ones. not fair. and i must admit that this gym, was just as good...enough facilities and on top of that, they have classes!

..the wrong side of the river...

why ponder thus the future to foresee, and jade thy brain to vain perplexity? cast off thy care, leave Allah's plans to Him-He formed them all without consulting thee. .

it's taken from one of books i read. it's three cups of tea. true story of a man to promote peace thru education, one school at a time. and now at published time i'm still reading it. i'll put up my review once i've done reading.

hmm...tonight i plan to run 10k at local indi gym near my house. per entry fee is rm7 which, i think i could survive it but...i must really utilize it, if i could do 15k, i must as well do it.

i'm too nervous to face the race day...i could feel the heat...even hotter everyday.

..worried of sckl...

well, not enough training indeed...it has been a while since my last run and to make thing worse, a long time since my last long run...

..life has to go on

..i've to change my blog link...360 is going to close soon!