..i fall in love...

i fall in love again and again...for the same person...just at different occassions...it's for firdaus. i first fall in love with him in the wedding ceremony, with his all white baju melayu and songkok and he is stunningly handsome. i fall in love with him, the more every minute i see him. and the wedding? ours. i'm in white baju kurung, matching to his...waiting for him to take the vow in the akad.

he is so, handsomely stunning and i know he loves me too. every aota.

..it has been a while...

a very long while since my last entry...well, as usual...not that i do not opened or tried to make entry but everytime...i just jottd a few things and i left unspoken. even so much more to speak about.

today, regardless during office hour...bright day light...i feel like writing...i read writing a journal make ones release their tense, stress and depression...so why not i?

since it has been long hence, so many thing happened, bad or good...well of course i count every blessing but...somehow, the bad still keep popping up. like, sapuraglobal group is no longer in a good cashflow state, my boss being accused of acting beyond her authority, that she is going to resign soon, and i am now in operations once again...monitoring AR SOPs and all...and i too feel like leaving...

speaking of leaving, i've actually many choices...of whether to transfer to other sapura group of companies like sapuracrest or sapura industrial...given that i wanted to pursue career in internal audit. or, i stick with sapuraglobal, in operations till vss to come, or i shalle look in the market and secure myself a new job in new place, this would the grueling part, with interviews and cv update and all...and last but not the least, work for myself!!!

yep...the last one is my favorite idea of all...i feel like opening workshop and i read about franchising. and i've sent request but to no reply. nevermind that as i search for same in kind. i found punb offering bumiputera a very attractive package and why not? i'm still studying and i told aris about it...perhaps he could help and at least share some thought and ideas. still waiting somehow.

cars...rally...mechanics of it...i love it. inshaAllah...if i try hard enough and Allah has His very blessing for me, i'll succeed. i love the idea and i know my parents too. i'll work this idea out...i've all the courage and spirit and i just knew...that was all i need this while. i'll pursue this!

Ya Allah, please help me...please. Amen.

..2010 finally emerged...

yeah, was said it has choice of whether or not.

actually...i drafted this few weeks back and now, i barely remember wht i'd like to write about...and still thinking of what i've said above. ok, lets move on, never mind what i think that day...what matter...what i remember today bout the day.

ok, 2010...is partly great and partly freak...i've listed down things i'd like to do most and working on it...well, sort of.

i really hope that 2010 will bring more prosper and happiness and greatness and less fear and hopeless and none of the bad...none of particular frustration. oh, btw...i was wondering if i could fall in love again...hahaha...yes it's funny, seriously.

how come? can i fall in love? can i...actually have such a feeling? i'm realist...practical, neat freak...well they called it ocpd...obsessive compulsive disorder personality...whatever. doesn't matter...i know, i'm neat freak...time freak...ok, so what if i'm a freak after all?

if i wanted to fall in love again, i'd want to fall in love at first sight...that i can feel...so he is the one! yeah, right as if there are such. ok, i wont give it up...if there is not, i've nothing to lose. but if there is any...we shall see how that can turn my life into. hmm...good ones not bad :P

hmm...i've got this particular photo that really melt my heart away...and i must affirm myself that, if i were young once again, i shall pursue this guy...because he has everything i want in his look. really...he is so, so, good looking!



he's handsome chap isn't is?

..had so much fun!!!

it was a great time, we had so much of fun! never thought that the fun was almost ultimate! burst into laughters and care less bout what people think instead, join them. no perceptions, at all...just fun!

i was with dila, khaizul and mieza whom happen wanted to join us and supposedly wan, but she was sulking all the way since we were late. sigh...lets left this behind and moved on.




ok, lets get started. it was 31.12.09 and usual weekday, well not that usual since we were all anticipating an evening full of fun and be ready to blast one! we had lotsa fun and blasted one indeed.

i left office, sharp at 6pm in a verge to be @the curve as early as i could possibly be and yeah, finding parking won't be an easy task.

lets share the photos...