..mesmerized by books...

and more books...i read my first book on jeffrey archer and almost immediately i fall in...i was like mesmerized by his way of writing. so smooth...so intriguing...it was unputdownable...which captivate my attention toward many other books from other authors like charles dicken who always one of my all time favorite and new one, alexandre dumas. classic indeed.

actually...since my obsession with books is getting worse...i've lot of unread books on my shelves. when i look at it...i was always thinking...when would i read all these books? it was too many and still...i keep buying and no sign of stopping what i'm doing. it's like one theraphy which make me feel so good about myself. when i buy books...i felt relief...sort of satisfied.

it's expensive obsession, my running as well...i've to fork out many percentage of my household income...yeah right...and it's thousands for just a few months and that's for one, and only one bookstore and i buy from not just one. argh...it's expensive.

having to note this, i remember my last office attire shopping was like gazilion years ago...so as my running shoes. luckily, i didn't run or train that much so...having said that the need to buy new running shoes able to be put onhold. yeah...even the urge to buy is so intense, so intensed!

i missed my time to be able to shop again...may be because finance contraint...i don't feel like shopping...but well, not for books. that's why i said...it's just theraphy i can't ignore. i love to chill at bookstore...i love to be able to buy more books and love to curl in bed with good books and i really don't mind having sleepless night for amazing books like a prisoner of birth or my best friend's girl. i think it just worth it.

nevermind if i look almost zombie like...tired eyes, black circle around eyes...and having to spend more on supplement to help me 'enhance' my ability to 'alert' during office hour. never yet one time, i regret reading book dragged me wee hour and the next day means i'll be less alert.

actually...most of all, i'm worried. i'm worried bout my weight, my training during ramadhan and my financial stading right now. sigh. anyway...i'm praying that i'll be blessed during fasting month and my ibadah will be acceptable. amen.

..realizing life is hectic indeed...

my last 1 month and a half was hectic. with my work...and it was called deadline approaching...i cant just sit still...i run almost every part of the corner of the office to get my stuff done. done it was. and i must be thank Allah and be so grateful for His help and bless.

now that my daily life has back to normal or rather abnormal since i like busier me than nothing much to do me. i miss my KOTR 09 today...yeah, i wasn't have the courage, no guts to be truthful to run today. i hadn't enough traning for last couple of weeks. and worse, my calf injured when i moved my stuff out from old house.

that was the reason, but not the reason i couldnt run today as my calf has back to normal...but the reason for i didnt have my last minute training to 'fill' half empty 'jar' of my fitness capacity. thus, i know i could run good...you know being a 'perfectionist' and not be able to do thing unless everything is in good order wasnt feel good anyway.

and yeah, irfan loves me...well, he's my energetic and boisterous and magic and fantastic nephew i have...i love him too.

oh ok, i'm now reading dorothy koomson's my best friend's girl and i love it...i don't know...i just love to read anything on friendship...but not relationship...i can't seem to appreciate when it comes to books on husband, wifey...oh i didn't pick up such a book. not yet, not that i never tried but...i've no interest to read. might as well don't spend on thing won't do any good to me.

that's one...another is that. i'd like to write...a book...on my interest...but i ain't pretty sure what kind of fiction i'd write...but i'll try, i'll try it here....