..or should i?

hmm...yeah should i or should i not? it's about office stuff of course...forget kk by now. it's way behind my back...i'm now content with stuff in the office...

who annoyed me the most and who delighted me the less...hahaha...what's the different anyway? ok, let go through it...this girl, or rather lady or may be just simply a woman, really start to annoy me at best! her name is sarina :) she start to dig really deep grave for herself...ok, i am mad.

last 2 days, i had meeting with my friends and colleagues hadi and husin discussing bout this woman whom we see can't do even simplest work she was assigned. yes, i'm not biased ok. she really can't....what she can do best was deligating the task to someone else...say her trainee...yes, i'm not exagerating.

i asked her to do the recon and produce me recon statement...she ask shafiq, the trainee whom i'm glad he able to learn fast or else. ok, i help him do the recon of course but again...he's willing to learn. that is the essence of working. commitment to learn...not just know how to deligate eh.

so, ok...i assigned her to do recon she obviously can't. i'm half through the story now...yeah...half of it. lets continue. then after our discussion we decided to talk to boss, that i will talk to boss. not that we wanted to screw her nor to stab her but for her own good. so she would learn.

last night, after i send my report that shows remarkably unsatisfactory result, i talked to boss. and subsequently stray to this woman's work...and ah, we have far bigger problem than just this woman...it's her boss! duh! double duh! boss think she's not capable of handling her tasks, duties and responsibilities . boss said, she's slow sometimes ignorance...that's why we had so many problems in her team. be it AP or AR and well she excel in treasury nonetheless.

and we talk bout who is the best person who can handle the tough tasks? yes, i can see she hinted me...but no, i'm not really interested in pursuing 'cash manager'...limit my creativity...my engineering capabilities...my ideas...or may be i should take up the challenge?

i can revamp as i wanted it to be...my way or highway! hhahhaha...sound powerful eh...ah, i don't know...boss trusted me to do that? or was she trying to fish me into doing it? i love my job, my task...extensive...i simply love it.

and for sarina, boss admits she doesn't know a thing only talking, loudly.

..kk is still in the air...

since it was so great an experience, we haven't done talking bout kk yet. still exchanging the photos and show off...kinda and still very much talking bout james...yeah, again james.

still talking bout the beautiful paradise in mamutik, manukan and sapi islands and how good we were during rafting...well or so like it.

well i even consider to move in kk...work there in hotel management, yes, crazy idea but yeah...i consider it...very hard. well, i don't want to cut it off while i was still there and wanted to come back after i've left everything here in kl. moreover, i'm city girl...can i stand kk...like out of town place? too far from civilization. even after 3 days in kk...i missed kl terribly but on 4th day...i didn't feel like going back!

lets think again.

life was great!!!!

..leave the land under the wind...

it has almost been a week i was in KK. spending time and money needless to say. and having so much of fun. i manage to submit one report, the most complicated ones and important one just before i left for KK.

i was great from the start, thank God. Alhamdulillah...the weather was fantastic! and only raining at night and the evening before we left for KL. the civilizations.

how i'm so speechless to say that...everything was so nice, was so fairy, was so damn great while staying in KK. Alhamdulillah nothing bitter, nothing at all...just a slight uncomfortable-ness. but that, i tried not to remember. only the most amazing thing lingered in my mind.

we start our first day, when we touched down in KK. checked in, rushed to pickup runner's pack for the marathon where...i felt so half heartedly bout running 21k the next morning. well, i ran nevertheless but only 10k and i believe, i did well. i ran the course all the way...i was grateful nothing bad happen...well not that bad since i've forgotten to wear socks. how i was forgotten?

i wore shoes in the cab...then only i knew that i didn't bring my running socks. ah, great! i only lost one toe nail and slower run as i've to adjust my feet every now and then. or i'll have a bloody feet by time i reached finishing point.

after that, i took the bus at pick up point back to hostel just happened that the bus stucked, yes...stucked under the fly over which eventually made us all walked or took another mean of transport. me, i was so lost...literally...until i found a police post and asked for direction. they said it was near...and made me walked around 20 more minutes to hostel and that was near...can't say much eh.

reached hostel and around 10am, rudi asked us out jalan-jalan KK tour. and so we went to bukit bendera, the observatory tower to see the whole town. and then from there we went straight to kinabalu park. i didn't realized it was so far from KK town. or may be it was far because of the road. we stopped at tamparuli, the suspension bridge and the proceed to pekan nabalu, again up on top of the observatory tower and witnessed mount kinabalu...s very clear.

then we went to timpohon of around 2,000m from sea level where it was the starting point to climb to mountain. after that we went to poring hot spring and i sweat like...nobody's business! we end our trip at kinabalu park when we stopped at kundasang and ranau. it was indeed nice place, cool places.

the next day...first thing in the morning, we got ready to our most dangerous activities of all...yeah rite. like it really was. white water rafting! and only knew that shera didn't actually knew that raft is a modern raft! she thought it was bamboo...oh puhlezzzz...i laughed at her thought of ideas like hell...it became a joke! how she was so naive.

kiulu river or tuaran river as known to the locals was grade 1-2 and sometime 3 when it rained the night before. the course was 9k with 15 rapids. i had great time, eventhough it wasn't so great to find out that i can't float in white water! even with the life jacket...nuh...how comes? never mind...the river guide was really helpful...he helped me when i drank how much water i couldn't count...and he was laughing.

he took me to the raft after we did body rafting and i couldn't get myself in. hahaha...that was hilarious. no, i wasn't jumped out of the raft even though there were fierce rapid along the way and we did hit all the rocks we could find...because it was fun and there where the fun lied.

i was shivering when we reached the ending point. where again i body rafted. yes, i was scared because the guide scared me when he said there were creatures under water. hey, seriously i can't figure myself more scare than in the water without knowing what were inside it!

after about one hour, oh yes...i didn't feel like leaving but heck we had to. we took our ride back to town...tired. and yeah...it wasn't really a serious pedalling since it was rapids remember. it flowed, like elevator!

on the way back we stopped by and bought buah tarap...some kind of jackfruit, well a smaller version and a bambangan sort of bachang kind of fruit. smell so strong! which finally it was given to rudi and the bambangan brough to office...great momentos.

the third day was even fabulous...remarkably fantastic and unforgettable. i went to the island park which till now, i felt like going back to the island...it was so nice, so peaceful and so, so...argh speechless...no word better described. the weather again was great. the first island was mamutik...yes the fishes were damn friendly. and the life guard too...he...hmm...tall dark and handsome! oh, how i bite my own tougue when i said this...he was so nice too. i think all people of sabah were really soft spoken and polite and nice. at least, during my stay.

at second island manukan, i was tired and lost my breath already. i didn't so snorkelling. just resting and having good time jalan-jalan along the beach. nice view. after that to sapi. i didn't want to miss anything here...so, i jumped to the sea again. and this nice guy who talked to my friend was so nice to bring further to the diving spot and see more under water. excited i was...and my guide was diving instructor. nice but...hmm...i didn't feel comfortable with him...as i said earlier. and i wanted to forget it. period.

the diving spot was greatly amazing! fantacy! fairy...everything was damn nice...yes, i wanted to spend more time there in the future. never mind if i turn tan...10 shades darker than i am now. for what great thing offered...i would jump for it a thousand times over!

forth day, i was suppose to do KK fun quest but due to missunderstanding...changed to wild cruise along klias river. i was told that it was crocodiles habitats and was advised not to play with water...however so, i won't play with the water as it was so black like charred!

yes, we saw probosis monkey a.k.a. bayau like 12x zoomed...yes they were shy creatures and hardly welcome human. and we saw few fireflies before we headed back as it started to rain. yeah...it just water and i liked it but it was KK we were talking about and 6pm was really dark. not willing to wait for any possibilities of rain to stop. it was around 60km from the town of KK but took me 2hr or so to reach the place. again, it was the road and the traffic!

i'd good fight with the driver, the guide when we had to follow two cars...was so slowed that we had no idea of why! yes, we could see there were nothing in front of them...of course, we were in the big van, a mini bus. we bet that i said, it must be men drivers whom bercinta and he bet it was lady drivers. turned out to be true, it was men!!! we had good laugh...

the next day was the day to travel back to KL...where i started to miss everything. everthing i enjoyed in KK. the people, the places, the environment, the weather, the beaches...the mountains, the crocker range...argh...even the traffic! i really loved sabah, especially KK. i'm loving it...

looking forward to be in KK again in the future!

report vs holiday of days

i've reports to submit and very much still under constructions! i'm literally panicking and stressful and wish all the luck in the world is for me. but it doesnt seems so. it seems more like obstacles along the way.

ok, it was my fault to have ym but it was invi for goodness sake. and my biggest problem, i can do much of work at home no matter how badly i wanted to. i just can't figure out why...i guess i've to try hard and force myself to basically do my work at home...occasionally.

for holiday packing was done, almost at least. only a few small things like sandals that i've decided not to buy. and telekung which i'm still not decided which one to bring. and my jawpaws that i just clean this morning =D

ok, that it...oh another one, still thinking which book to bring to KK. i dont know whether i'll have time for book or notebook that i'll bring together but...i will bring nonetheless...well, considering what ifs...yeah right!

i haven't really remind my boss that i'll be away for long. i'll have to produce these reports which still under construction to make my way to holiday and having good time without work at the back of my mind.

i don't train...for so long. i don't know if i could survive my half marathon. my best run. i don't even know if i'll ever run it! duh! it was scary thought that i'm not having enough training and wah...what an effort to fly all the way across the sea to run just not to run, wasn't it? so, i think i'll run. inshaAllah.

and typhoon...oh i'm so edgy bout the news. what's the weather like? would i be able to do what i've planned? would it be safe? oh...so many question in my mind. i really, really, really hope that thing will go fine as planned. amen.

i've alerted friends in KK that i'll be around for holiday. and looking forward for exciting holiday and expecting to have many beautiful photos!

..buying house and filling dreams...

i have dreams...many dreams...may be most of it associated with material. i want to have car, house, money, money and more money...and may be qualifications too.

but, i'm not that very fortunate...still, i'm grateful and feeling fortunate of what i have now...never one day i would want to prefer otherwise...hmm...may be for better. so i could pursue my other dreams...reading more books and writing books and gardening. well, mom and dad have plenty of space to garden anyway.

and i can open bookstore, or book for rent or library for that matter so, i could be in the athmosphere i love the most. and i can write and earn money...and become popular. yes, i love to be popular. better still, a best seller! ha ha, that's what we called dreams. keep dreaming and who knows it would come true one day? just work for it...

oh yeah, it was sometime knocked my mind that why is it matter when woman doesnt marries? well, i remember that the 'hukum' was initially harus...and that point i know i must check. it's in my mind that not being married is not 'haram'. or was it? wait. let me check again.

never mind, i can't find in the internet...i can't be bothered. too much info. i'll read from the book instead. think if i go to the curve now, is ok. or not? later...argh...again i put off thing...i'm total procratinator!

and...i'm forgetful. was it because i'm a single minded?

..dan yang kurik itu kundi...

it's been a week now after raya...yes it's still shawal...and still very much in holiday mood. and 3 reports are waiting to be submitted. wah, stressful.

hmm...i found new book store...not big but ok la...wide variety of fictions. and for 2 visits i've bought 3 books. it is really cheap, seriously. almost half of normal price! where can you find that? but still to hang out, borders is still the best and mph has wider choice.

ada banyak benda dalam kepala ni. report nak kena hantar, barang rumah nak kena beli, trip ke kk dah tak lama lagi, ah paling memening kan, larian yang hanya tinggal beberapa hari sahaja lagi...sedang latihan masih tak cukup. azam masih kuat, nak buat larian jauh besok...sekali ada rumah terbuka di rumah bos. ah, tidak boleh tidak...mesti kena menghadir kan diri.