..i think i better be a terminator...

than a human. human get hurt, terminator doesnt, nor did bionic woman. i'm bit by bit becoming human when i be friended with firdaus. and i think it does more no good than one.

i'll get myself hurt again, sooner or later. i just can't bear hurt anymore...i've given my heart away long ago...then i suffer did not...and i don't care if i'm a machine. the hurt is unbearable. i can't trade anything for temporary happiness and humanity and later i know exactly that i'll be hurt.

i hate being human...feel like human...the happiness human offers, they can turn out to be something hurtful. like with firdaus...