..so he is mr lieutenant...

yeah, he's young lieutenant and an athlete too...amazing...for i really adore those tough people...and happen he is one. great...

'waaaa...haha, i forgot to tell u. sigh. 28/10/09. hehe, cash rm300, ic, cards, license, precious wallet, all gone. hahaha.. :p'. the second i read the word precious, i knew it must be from his girlfriend...well his ex he said. and true enough...he told me so, when i asked whether he has himself a new one.

and suddenly a twinge of jealousy hit my feeling. and suddenly i realized, something is not right somewhere...and further after that i also realized, everytime i think of him my heart skipped a beat...everytime...oh no...what was really happening? can't be true...or has invested in some kind of feeling which will wreck and reek in the future?

yes, i started to like him...pure, i liked his spirit...his dreams he shared with me...his ambition. firdaus...even now, my heart beated faster than usual. i don't deserve him...but i needed him to fulfill my loneliness. he asked me whether i was jealous? well...who wanted to admit? anyway we just know each other. i told him, my heart skipped a beat...

he gave me his friendster link so i could check him out...one thing bout this guy was...he always taken me abacked. or was it me, who was like an open book? everybody knew what would my next step be? like my boss...she just knew and she was good...

i remembered the time i was closed with megat...we were like complete, we were funny, we shared jokes, we shared teasers, we even shared insults! then what happened? we argued and we left at the junction to where will never met again. this, honestly i was, still am afraid of...yeah, i'm a planner...i wanted everything under my control, i'm organized person...and i wanted to able to have all environment under control. but, the question was...could i?

no, i couldn't and that was why...my heart beat faster...skipped beat when i was thinking of him... firdaus. he was definitely too young...that left me feel edgy when i had communication with him. nonetheless...i still want his company.

..so how now?

'babe. this is my ic number. 851111-12-5099. what r u doing there?'. that's how exactly one sms from firdaus sound on 10.11.09 at around 10.49pm. i was like, what? are you saying your birthday is in 2 hrs and only now yoy are telling?

yeah, great then. that particular moment i was out with my brother...he came to pickup his car...so...i can't be so action anymore la.

ok, ok...the point is...at around mid night i called to wish him happy birthday but he never pick up the calls. that was ok, i sent sms wishes instead.

this morning...he woke me up with his sms. and i called him...he, for some reasons are suspicious lot too. hmm...i wonder how i wanted to tackle this problem...well, if it became one. yeah, obviously it will...he's 10yrs my junior ok!

ah...how i don't want to think about it now.

p/s - i surrender true fitness last night.

..have i ever mentioned...

i was surprised...indeed, very. i started to start talking to this guy...firdaus that i saw him from the bowling tournament. to my surprise...he knew exactly what was happening on the day...yeah on the tournament day.

argh...how was that suppose to happen? i thought nobody paid any attention to me except that my crazy as hell team mates! but there were...this guy named firdaus...was actually paid his attention and not just that...to every details...i did on the day! what i've eaten...my breakfast sandwiches and that i'd my lunch on the day...

yeah, of course i was stunt. or rather speechless...like...'erk...you know?, can't be true...' of how can one paid that much of attention to me? so much that he knew most of the thing i did on the day...gosh...embarrassed.

argh...firdaus...no wonder you can spot me even without sapura shirt...never felt so shocked like this before...

..and really pissed off i was...

it was on wednesday when i got the sms...a meeting with mr. lee on the 5th...that was yesterday. so, i wasn't that surprised that being called by the 2nd director...it was what he wanted to know.

ok, so sarina will be in the meeting as well..i must regard that would be due to the sensitive issue with the vendors...it must have been.

so, yesterday...we held the meeting ended up me, shouting at sarina because of her stupidity...maximum!!! and i told her boss, fazilah and eventually she was called in boss' room. served her right with her stupidity...

my concern now, i felt like...i can do almost anything to get this poor bastard out of my eyes...i know that was evil...lets see if she dared to cross me again...she should have leant the lesson but...knowing this bastard...she wont, and weren't.

lets cross fingers.

..everything now in place...resolved!

finally boss, had digested result from AR audit report. fazilah will still be leading her team with hopeful of improvement. and i was such a release to get to know boss has drop the idea to reshuffle her team...which was scary for me.



so, what's new? hmm...it was bowling tournament last saturday and it went well. very well indeed till i met this one guy...nice and cute one. his name is firdaus. from sapura industrial. of how i get to know him?



well, during bowling...i teamed with all guys, so...i knew i'll be bullied by them eventhough they were great team members. so, happened...next to us, was sapura industrial team...our rival was from sapura crest.



i didn't actually realized i'd been watched...and i'd been watched...by the other team! oh yeah, i didn't waer sapura's team t shirt. so, with hopeful...that nobody will know me...sort of...



so, when i was on my way back...i followed this one guy...he was with his friend. so, suddenly he watched over his back and...there it started. he said hi...and to my suprise...he recognized me as one of the sapura global's players! hmm...




so...i told him i was on my way back home, which i actually...wanted to buy some fruits but cancelled my intention because suddenly my attention went to him =)



so, we chatted for a while...down the escalator and he said he had to go to levi's store or something...which i was desparately wanted to continue my chat with him...which i found interesting. argh...i wanted to ask for his mobile number but i didn't want to be seen deparate. so, what did i do? since he wasn't asking for my mobile either.



well, if he was interested in me...he would have asked. so, instead, i asked for email address...luckily it was so easy to remember or i was so damn genius when it came to 'interesting' guy thing...you know...it was saturday and there woulnd't be any connections till weekdays eh...well, i must passed 48hr test excellently!



my heart was racing when he shouted over shoulder to email him...that time i was thinking he must be some kind of guy whom really will evaluate one person before he gave out his mobile number...so do i...




anyway, on monday...i sent him email from my company mail...and then, i received sms...from him . then we started our conversation. and then i knew that he was watching me...all the while, he knew my points! how rediculous! never mind that, he called me comel...and hey cuty...i was like, excuse me?




so, we exchanged sms...for 3 days now. i knew he was single and still is because he was with a male friend remember...not a girlfriend and, and he replied my sms almost immediately. so? wasn't that strong enough to proof he was single? ok, we exchange sms till late at night every single night now...got it? well, i'm convinced...he even confessed that he had broken relationship with his girl...he was so into his work, workaholic!




now that i realized, not everybody can take workaholic seriously...they tend to or rather not to be involved with one. that was ok...i'm one.


so, last night we bet, of whether who will score higher pin drop when we played bowling again.





i'll be toasted!!! but that was fun...not that i was happy because he was happy...it pleased me when i made someone happy.





today...i'd my AR presentation...and i guess it was too bad an audit review so...

..or should i?

hmm...yeah should i or should i not? it's about office stuff of course...forget kk by now. it's way behind my back...i'm now content with stuff in the office...

who annoyed me the most and who delighted me the less...hahaha...what's the different anyway? ok, let go through it...this girl, or rather lady or may be just simply a woman, really start to annoy me at best! her name is sarina :) she start to dig really deep grave for herself...ok, i am mad.

last 2 days, i had meeting with my friends and colleagues hadi and husin discussing bout this woman whom we see can't do even simplest work she was assigned. yes, i'm not biased ok. she really can't....what she can do best was deligating the task to someone else...say her trainee...yes, i'm not exagerating.

i asked her to do the recon and produce me recon statement...she ask shafiq, the trainee whom i'm glad he able to learn fast or else. ok, i help him do the recon of course but again...he's willing to learn. that is the essence of working. commitment to learn...not just know how to deligate eh.

so, ok...i assigned her to do recon she obviously can't. i'm half through the story now...yeah...half of it. lets continue. then after our discussion we decided to talk to boss, that i will talk to boss. not that we wanted to screw her nor to stab her but for her own good. so she would learn.

last night, after i send my report that shows remarkably unsatisfactory result, i talked to boss. and subsequently stray to this woman's work...and ah, we have far bigger problem than just this woman...it's her boss! duh! double duh! boss think she's not capable of handling her tasks, duties and responsibilities . boss said, she's slow sometimes ignorance...that's why we had so many problems in her team. be it AP or AR and well she excel in treasury nonetheless.

and we talk bout who is the best person who can handle the tough tasks? yes, i can see she hinted me...but no, i'm not really interested in pursuing 'cash manager'...limit my creativity...my engineering capabilities...my ideas...or may be i should take up the challenge?

i can revamp as i wanted it to be...my way or highway! hhahhaha...sound powerful eh...ah, i don't know...boss trusted me to do that? or was she trying to fish me into doing it? i love my job, my task...extensive...i simply love it.

and for sarina, boss admits she doesn't know a thing only talking, loudly.

..kk is still in the air...

since it was so great an experience, we haven't done talking bout kk yet. still exchanging the photos and show off...kinda and still very much talking bout james...yeah, again james.

still talking bout the beautiful paradise in mamutik, manukan and sapi islands and how good we were during rafting...well or so like it.

well i even consider to move in kk...work there in hotel management, yes, crazy idea but yeah...i consider it...very hard. well, i don't want to cut it off while i was still there and wanted to come back after i've left everything here in kl. moreover, i'm city girl...can i stand kk...like out of town place? too far from civilization. even after 3 days in kk...i missed kl terribly but on 4th day...i didn't feel like going back!

lets think again.

life was great!!!!